.Friday, May 28, 2010@3:41 AM.
Guess it really time for me to move on already. All this hope that I'm hanging on really ain't helping. It just bring more and more devastating memories and mood to my mind. Right now I'm looking at your pictures and wonder what if that is me? won't it be better? Guess that's my childish side. Hoping on you coming back to me is futile, pointless and it won't come true.
You on the pictures look so happy man, your smile look so real and it's coming out from your heart. I know from the start my concern and linger by your side is on my own wish. Call me stupid man but you're the only girl i think i will go very long in the future. Almost every time, you will remind me that what if one day i break up with you, will i still look for you? Questions like "If one day, i finally get permission to stay overnight, could we go camping at ecp?" I always answer yes. And i really wish for that to happen. Words of that time, really doesn't mean anything from what i can see. It's just words of assurance and stupidly in love.
I'm really putting down this. Finally, I'm convincing myself to believe that. In this world, second chances maybe everywhere but in this case, a U-turn sign isn't anywhere in this case. I think today event is telling me to put down for sure, move on and don't feel guilty about meeting new girls already. Events like LZX called me, Me asking about her, Me going temple to pray for her and Her very long post in facebook with pictures.
I swear to god, no more am i going to take priority of her any more in my life. My heart, will once break away from you....