.Friday, October 9, 2009@1:16 PM.
My friend asked me today. "Hey dude, have you gotten over her?" I stopped for a second and followed by an unsure tone of " Yeah babe, why won't i?" I got so fuck that moment after, that i didn't know what to talk about what to think or what to said. I just kept drinking and drinking and drinking. Obviously from my action they will see my answer isn't the truth.
Later part, the friend who asked me the question invite me to go toilet and smoking break with him, hence i went with him. He told me, "I won't ask whether your answer back then is true or false but here's my piece of advice, life have to move on, if she had move, why can't you. Go out more, accompany your friends, family more. Like that you will forget her faster." In my mind, I'm thinking in your sentence, which part didn't i tried before, which part i didn't listen before. I used 9 months, 9 long months to forget everything, i tried everything but my mind still seems stuck at that point.
I thought i can feel some warmness from you guys but it seems like I'm too emotionally filled by that question, i didn't know what to tell you all about. I went for a walk with the blueberry bottle in my hand, thinking about all the times we are together.
I'm actually tired of lying, tired of acting out something that i don't want to. You will said, ya if you don't want to act, no one will force you. But some situation dis allow you from doing that....