.Saturday, October 3, 2009@6:30 AM.
I really don't understand what happening this few weeks, this dream occurring like every night. You are in it, like always. Becoming like a story which always wake me up in the middle of the night. I became very emotionally sad whenever at night, so i made myself a promise to try and remain home at night so i won't cause a nusiance. But there are times when it's not my call, so i will ensure that they are busy with something before i go off to my own world.
I really miss her too much, that's why even in my sleep, i still think of her. She felt so close to me, so incredibly true even in my dream. Even those feel of her breath and her hand, damn freaking realistic. It wonder to me how long more must i endure to really forget her. And followed by that, i will have a lot of people telling me, go embark yourself into a new relationship or never mind, time will wash away everything. I guess that's what they call words of comfort.
My work place! another awfully stupid story. Why are you so stupid to create an impression to people that you can't concentrate on your job and do you really understand what's your job scope? There are reasons why people don't work that way, it's not because they are lazy. It's more like they know when they want to implement something, there are a lot of work to do and some unnecessary trouble will be created, especially you do in a time when we are having a lot of works. The worst thing is, you do things halfheartedly. This thing haven't settle, you want to do a new thing and don't want to solve the problems right in front of you. No wonder you are still in this state and position....please save yourself and get a brain if you want to stay in this line....
Yesterday was a sad night, i heard from them that Taiwan, will be a rainy season in January and that's the month i planned the whole trip on! What a waste man, i totally planned it perfectly already and now we gotta change our destination! What to do, things don't go our way we just have to follow the flow to ensure it will run smoothly! That's is call adaptive! Anyway, if the place changed to Thailand, we got more money to spend, more money to save! Just hope it will make everyone happy and really get their load off some other their mind!
Everyone seeking for their rightful place in this world, don't give up on yourself just because of a little setback. Things won't always go your way that's for sure. And even if things go your way, you can't take it for granted.