.Wednesday, August 12, 2009@6:12 AM.
Making something clear before i continue blogging. The previous post wasn't talking about any of you 3. Mainly CHUAH ZHI HAO, chee wee and beng wee, so don't keep hunting me. I'm just a audience in your life.
After having that conversation with you made me realize a lot, understanding more of what is she actually going through. There's fact that are very hard for me to swallow but slowly, I'm pushing down my throat. When you told me those things, i really can see there's not barrier in between, just two harmless soul trying to communication. This is what i can't get from her because she just can't let people see her weak side. I seen it but there's no more chance for me to catch it again. She shut off that moment she made that decision.
It take two hands to clap to make sound and all this while I thought those two hands are working hard clapping but truthfully the fact is that, the other hand has somehow gotten tired and eventually given up clapping. Leaving the clapping task to the other hand but that's not the end. Now, the tired hand has had enough of everything and left the other hand.
Spark need to be there for it when it started and not by trying to create spark in relationship. It will really wear out a person, physically and mentally. Now that both hands had tired themselves out. I guess peace is next? or maybe there's another hand, softer and warmer. Creating louder and smoother tone?
When i pour out to you, you told me you'll stick by me, i know you are the one that support me the most. But can you feel the sadness i have in this matter? You know which matter I'm referring to. It just seem so fragile and when i look back, god we went through so much but what's the use? The situation just dissolve without anyone supporting it. You will said so what? what can you do? but don't you atleast feel a little sad for what is happening? Guess tiredness have gotten in and ignorance are building in.
Love is such an fragile, especially ours.
Bond is untangling beneath our eyes but we just stood still.
Are you happy now?