.Sunday, August 30, 2009@6:15 AM.
How can you forget someone if the person still live in your head? Every time rainy days come, I feel happy because it really calm me down and make me think of you. My room is full of your items and memories. Every time i sleep, i only dare to sleep on the right side, because you always sleep on the left. Once, my mother said i shout your name in my sleep and follow by "I Love you", how ironic man. All those words i said I already forget her, i got over her, she's no longer in me. Bullshit man, I can't get over her, everything i said to her, everything i do with her, every place i go with her, everything about her really still exist in my head and every time I thought i can do it, no it just came back, some times in double size mind eating pressure. My heart scream in agony and the thinking about you no being able to be with me, looking at my brother and sister talking to my mother about their relationship, really fucked me up sometimes. This isn't jealousy but more of "Adrian, you have her for 3 years, whatever your sister and brother had go through you had done it already so what's the pain about?" Guess I only can express this anger and pain through blogging.
But no matter how depress, sad or down i am. There's no way you can show it out to your friends and family. Sucks isn't it. Move over Adrian.