.Thursday, April 9, 2009@11:10 AM.
Today was the most upsetting day of the week, so many things just happened. When i was on my way back from army, i suddenly received your message, it was very sudden and i don't really know how to react. I really wanna call you at that time, if you asked me i really wanna meet you and really hug you for as long as i can. That's a dream. I can't really face the truth and all those facts that are pointing towards me. I only can run when i see you, i don't even have the guts to face you now you know. All i know is to coop up and cry or stare in blank.
When you ask me how am i. This is the question that you know better than me. I only can reply you something. If i can send one more message i would sent you. Woman, i love you the same as 3 years ago, nothing had change and nothing will. I will still do what it take to make you happy and to see you happy. I love you woman i really do.
I'm like super down under now. I can't handle the truth.
Happy birthday to you! Although i don't know why i always like to pretend my birthday is the same as you and i know you won't ever know this blog, i still want to wish you a very beautiful sweet 22 birthday.
When i was walking back home, thoughts start invading my mind. Things that concern you and her start flying in. I wish i had someone to complain to but when i search my phone book, i can't find anyone. Not a single person that i think wish to listen to me nag and complaint. I swallow down this and made my way to mac and head back home after that.
While waiting for Bloods at interchange just now and the walking to taxi at night, i realized something, they are not always there for you. So you have to be strong and try to cover all this by yourself. No point telling them too, they can't help much except for listening.