.Tuesday, March 24, 2009@4:47 AM.
Been awhile since i updated my blog, guess this few days I'm trying to adjust myself to my native life, the life that as if nothing have happen before but I'm still a long way from that target.
Okay, i applied for a morning off because i have an medical appointment in the evening and so the whole day is off for me. Board the train and saw one china old couple, i believe the woman is a prostitute and the man, i think he just paid money for their making love session. They were hugging each other like tomorrow is the last day of earth. I forgot to add something, the girl was wearing a white dress with low CUT and her breast was like popping out. As they were hugging so tightly like they wanna make love in the train, the lady breast was like going to pop out any time. A lot i really mean really a lot of people are looking at them but they seem like they are in their own world. They spotted a seat not long after but it's only one so what happen next really blew me off quite a bit, the guy sat on the chair and next the lady came on top of his lap. Wah Lan EH, haha it's the first time i ever see this kinda thing, the next thing i know, the auntie sitting next to them cannot tahan, she immediately stood up and walk away. The girl came down off his lap and sat beside him, they resume to their hugging and kissing session and next i thought the lady gonna give him a blow job or something but she just lay on the guy's lap. Valerie always tell me this kinda PDA (Public Display of Affection) will end up in the net, let see what tomorrow paper's have to say. If my phone is a camera phone, i will take their picture and sent to STOMP and get my NTUC voucher!
The next thing was a roughly 15 year old boy came in the train at city hall and he was wearing a head band but i look closely, it was actually a Naruto headband haha power right? at the same time, he was wearing a naruto glove too, machiam cos play! He was EVIL and totally devoted to naruto! haha i can't believe there are such a daring naruto lover here in Singapore. Imagine him run like one too haha.
Last thing, two school boy board the train and i can see that they are the unfortunate one(if you know what i meant). They saw that the train is full so they stood beside me but after a while, he said very loudly "NO SPACE!", right after that, he put his things on the floor and while trying to sit down on the floor, he pull my pants and act as a support for him, oh my, lucky the pants i wore quite tight. HAHAH, he didn't even apologies to me or anything but i just ignore it and continue standing beside him.
This few days, i took a lot of time to think. i called Michael almost everyday to nag and complain to him but i know i can't do this for long. It been a long time since i stood at the corridor and look at the sky, thinking about what i must do. I know i irritate lots of people already and i really can't get myself out of this deep shit. I believe I'm staying in this pile of shit for a long long time before i can dug myself out of it. Everything i said or think, surely will have you appearing in it and i can't change this fact. I really can't. While looking at the skies, i remember about days, we were just sitting at the beach and admiring the clouds passing by.
I can't face this fact, my mother she told me to take my time but i think it's gonna be a long long time. You sent me a message and i know that is what i must do if the message last line is true. I will do it for your sake. I know i said to you a lot of time that i will try but surely you know i will fail, just give me more time. I know you're helping me but just give me a bit to bite in can? I'm sorry guys, I'm sorry to you too. I just hate my heart when it come to this kinda matter. I hate it....