.Saturday, January 31, 2009@3:56 AM.
I thought everyone had forgotten about my blog but there are still some people doing some blog searching and found that my blog had reopen. Why am i so lousy? why? why i can't like put down and keep low. I am really trying dear, really trying. I don't wanna hold you, really. Putting down is my ultimate intention but your memory, your voice, face and everything kept appearing in my head, without doubt my mind is totally occupied by you.
You scolded me, joline scolded me too and i know a lot of people are cursing me right now. I know i must stop at all cost but i just can't i really don't know why. Please let everything end soon, please.
Everything is going very slow for me, i no longer have no mood to do anything. I guess i need to be alone for this period of them. Finding something that interest me and hope for the best next time. I'm going to put my time and effort in my family already. Those are the people that are important to me. I vow to you god, i swear with my life, after tomorrow. I will hug her, smell her and pass/wear for her the thing i bought for her, this will be the very last time and that's it. She's a great girl, the problem lies with me i'm sure, i'm the one to blame.....